Throughout my pregnancy, I struggled with how would I love this new child. I loved Abby so much it didn't seem there would be room for another to have that same love. I also don't "bond" with my baby in the womb like many other moms seem to do. I am thankful for him but I don't feel a closeness with him. When Silas was born, I immediately fell in love with him (and all of you moms told me that would happen). The problem was, Abby wasn't there. So I worried that I didn't love her as much and maybe my love just transferred. What would I do when I got home to my little girl? (These are the crazy thoughts I have in the middle of the night).
You probably already know the end of the story but it's still amazing to me. I love BOTH of my children incredibly - to the moon and back! There is no competition for my love but room enough for Abigail, Silas and whomever else God will grant us in the future.