Throughout my pregnancy, I struggled with how would I love this new child. I loved Abby so much it didn't seem there would be room for another to have that same love. I also don't "bond" with my baby in the womb like many other moms seem to do. I am thankful for him but I don't feel a closeness with him. When Silas was born, I immediately fell in love with him (and all of you moms told me that would happen). The problem was, Abby wasn't there. So I worried that I didn't love her as much and maybe my love just transferred. What would I do when I got home to my little girl? (These are the crazy thoughts I have in the middle of the night).
You probably already know the end of the story but it's still amazing to me. I love BOTH of my children incredibly - to the moon and back! There is no competition for my love but room enough for Abigail, Silas and whomever else God will grant us in the future.
There is nothing like a mom's love.
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